Repeat youself

sometimes it is trully like I have memory loss or brain damage-neither very pretty

Lets clear the air

I about few things so I wouldn't get in trouble(on here). So I used to be super sensitive. I fell for ever guy who so as glanced in my direction. I was hurt so easily by a harsh word. But i rellay grew and developed this year. I grew up.

Jeez

My first entry makes me wanna laugh and vomit. I guess you could say i was pretty emo. And that's just real sad. I didn't even follow my own advice.But life is full of mistakes. I f**ed my grades up. I hurt all the people I cared about. I lost my self respect. I let others use me. I even contemplated becoming a major slut. But one day i woke up. I person i respect very much told me point blank" WHO THE F**K ARE YOU?" Just like her I couldn't recognise myself. I was hollowed eyed. So very empty. Instead of dieing I dragged my self from the(self)wreckage. Mabye others can learn from my expirence. I know I did.

Wisdom plucked

Theres this relient k song and this piece from it is frankly beautiful
"you said the words I knew you knew/oh god oh god I needed you"
if you ever hear this song. you'll see what I mean. Lyrics are what you want to say at certain times but you could neve think of it. If i needed one word to describe me- BUBBLY. If anyone I know is reading this-well it wouldn't take a rocket scinetest to figur its me.All my old blogs you gotta ignore. this is like. a internet diary. Feeling are for one fleeting second, but words are carved forever. But not on my stone. sure i felt that way at one time. and I'm glad I have the records so I always rember stuff but I'm not that person anymore. So everyone who I know who is in these words- forgive me if I hurt you or piss you of the facts remain the same-THIS IS LIFE. We'll you've all been so good for listeing.

The calvary is comin

Just sent the word. I rellay hope someone comes and checks it out. So my favorite things?
1. my boyfreind
2.Birthdays!
3. goffyness(got plenty of that to share)
4.hearts
5.music
6.BLING-BLING(haha)
7.Chessy one liners(is heaven missing an angel?)
8.cooking
9. catchin some zzzzzzzzzzzz
10.laughing tell I cry
11.Being normal(now heres a laugh)
12.Daydreaming
13.watching family guy-only to have to say what the f##k
14.Poetry
15.ABBA
16.disney movies(alice in wonderland)
17.popscicles
18. summer
well dudes thats enough for now

back for good

long time. So I really have to get peoples attention. I read over my blog. It definitely is a piece of work. I think I'll hit up my myspace friends. So i lost 7 pounds this summer. My dad had to get a pace maker and get healthy. So I did to i know weigh 129. which I'm proud of. Last summer I weigh 152. On a 5foot2 frame. I'm now 5'6. i just ran allot-cut out junk food.Learned to make organic dishes. Which was the most fun. so school starts in two weeks for me. I really should have wrote through the summer. But I was way to busy. Are you ready for another year? I know I am. I promise it won't be so crazy. I plan to work my fingers to the bone stay true to my real friends.Something tried to kill me back there. all those months ago(theatrically speaking). But I won.