Wonder

Have you ever looked at your partener and wondered can he hurt me. Do I see him abusing me? (or her) It is a funny question. Last night my dad said if thats a lip ring your life is over. I'm sad about it, i mean it wa sa part of my life. I'm getting out for spring break!!! Except I'll miss James. He got me SCARY KIDS SCARING KIDS CD for christmas.Hes so sweet...................

Oh yah sean my beats in my heart all night long can you feel it.......................



You took me home I drank to much, cause of you my liver turns to dust
when your heart drops to the floor like an open bleeding sore
then you wil bleed like ive bleed

I'M MOST WANTED BY PARENTS .....

So lets set the scene ..Camera phone on video...Bethany ready..1.2.3 pierce. Now you have a Monroe...oops some one told........millions of teachers..........calls Ur mom........she storms in and takes you away..........she hates me tells me to stay out of your fucking life.........she takes you away .........all the stuff you cherish.....POOF!!!!!! but your li'bro says you'll be back next Wednesday ............YES ....will be awkward between us.........having your mom hating me and all.............yikes....well this is the conclusion....don't take risks when your heart(and gut).

Say What*say my name*

Yesterday James told me a secret so earth shattering. And I still love him...he was afraid I wouldn't love him any more. No he is not gay.hahhahahahah I just feel like writing this. So you know what I hate......crappy lip gloss. You know sparkles and gummy and stupid colors. i like clear colors that highlight what you got....and guys like how good you taste and how soft your lips are. Also guys like to smell your hair and rub it .Why is it so interesting to them? On another thing I hate is when people judge you by how you dress or how much you and your freaking friends hang out and hug and what not. Do you think revenge is sweet ,i do it tastes jelly belly's.or was it gummy bears................So this little dude made fun of me and called me emo bitch metal face....so he has community service. So he had to clean the school windows. He walks away and I smear my face,spit, And gum on it.It was a great mess.
i can't wait to see James. i can't face my mirror ...........................

That one guy named Sean makes laugh he can't remember my name, that's to bad...................to be continued

Things are much better between me and James. Sometimes though I don't think I show him enough affection. Like when he kisses me on the cheeck except i move so thats what he is kissing. I feel it's cause I don't want the whole world watching us. And also like, theres this guy named jessie who is sorta my friend. But someone, I don't know who told his girlfriend that i was after him to sabotoge their relationship.which is fucking stupid cause Jesse is notype. He makes me feel insecure about myself and just really everything about him makes him not my type. He's too pretty. And I admit that because come on, everyone knows Jesse is pretty. So, him and Macee (his girlfriend) are really in love, they are never fucking apart. And I'd like to rip whoever said that's fucking face off. The important matter is: I really like James. How much he likes me is the question now...

Why does this happen

Thanksgiving break. Yahoo.............James didn't come and see me today..I wish he had. And one of my exes still likes me and well I really liked him. But things were nice yet awkward.......so it was over. And he misses me except he found out I had a bf. So he told my best friend she couldn't tell me, but she did. So I'm sorta confused, cause I like James, sometimes it doesn't feel great.............................

Great Feelimgs

Scary I am super excited to smoke some methanol camels.............So amazing feelings. When something so freaking awesome happens you grab the closest person and hug awkwardly. or when you go to the lake or river and you jump in.The water is so cool and when you come up you want to scream. And you feel so clean even your teeth do. Then your friend says something so hilarious and you laugh so hard your stomach hurts and you just want to quit which makes you laugh harder.

WHAT????????/

Craig Owens makes me think of walnuts..............

Drama dished out with aside of no you didn't

So hum.....Danielle scratched her ex Jared up pretty bad cause well shes physcotic. As Ariel puts it "she's the girl on cop watch who's butt-naked, running from the cops ripping her hair out" not good right?!? Then Kat my other friend is mad about me smoking(cause I guess she doesn't want me to get hurt) and she's mad at Ariel for encouraging me. So she sat a far from my friends and me and ripped her friendship bracelets off. She so emo, but in a scary way. James is even worried.............
emo fighting a "wrist" problem

New Changes Happen for the Best

So I smoked my first cigarettes... which is fine cause I'm legal...but It's just not me.But I loved watching the smoke curl up in the drizzle and cold air. So me and my friends just seem to enjoy it. So I got Guitar lessons in two hours. My bff and her bf is taking it with me. Ariel died her hair purple It looks awesome. And I cut my bangs all choppy also James made me a mixed CD.He is wow just so Amazing which just doesn't even cover it...........how much does he feel for me?
Super happy but just a bit confused

guitar

Today I opend my locker found guitar gifts from Ariel. She begs for forgiveness which I give gladly cause I love her. She also gave me a new pick.It's pink,clearish and says FENDER. I just might get ISS today argh oh well. So tHATS TODAYS

I can't hate anymore

Ariel(one of my friends) has disappointed me. I guess we were playing around and she pulled my hair, and I threw my book at her, so we got in the hall messing around. Then I tugged on her purse hard. She yanked me buy my hair tugging me around and I'm whipsering.....please stop.I was just shoked. Then she pushed me hard against a locker. I just ran down the hall crying. I was in school it was'nt cool
should I be afraid,
*weeping for my broken frienship*

I can't tell

I can't talk about me and James to 3 of my friends hey like him!! Argh and I can't talk about it and I want to gush. He tastes like bubble gum, and takes it slow. Its hard to adjust for chris was way different. And I love getting to know James and I can't help he likes me, cause I like him...........................

*oh my goodness*

I cant stop thinking of him! We hugged and he kissed my cheek!! He smells amazing I love to see him laugh and stand close to him. Wow I relay fall hard , will there be a pile of fluffy stuffed animals to catch me? Cause Chris left me feeling as if I had slammed my knees into sharp glass, leaving me bleeding drowning in my blood.*Hides my face in shame and horror*
physicked emo

*screaming in my head*

My excitment about james bubbles up
trying to form words, A shout
I giggle and laugh, I must let them out
this is how i feel thinking i can love again

Deep in over my head, EMO

OH YAH

jAMES SAID YES. I'M SO HAPPY! cRAZIENESS! ME AND DANELLIE ARE SIC SUCKS!

OH YAH

Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG I asked James he's liked me for along time!!! He was just shy. That jerk made me and dannielle sic!!!! Argh! Hey I get to hang after school mabye me and James can!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY

Yes it seems james likes me, except he didn't tell me cause he didn't know I liked him I'm about to ask him wish me luck!

Not again

Yesterday I broke up with Chris! But I didn't talk to him. I told my friend that I never want to talk to him again. Today he didn't show up to school. They are going to kick him out. He is not going to graduate. But theres this nice guy at school...... He is in a band, a kind guy, funny, understands my situation. Sometimes I find him starring at me, Does this means he likes me? Am I rushing into things? I don't want to end up at the same brick wall banging my head against it. All my friends have great relationships and all guys want is to bang me. and if I say no I'm undesirable. These guys seem perfect to!
used and abused sweet emo

Twos sides of messed up love

Will I ever be able to forgive him? can I move on? I mean Chris was my dream. Funny , loves music, good to talk to, and I mean when are lips connected it was magic. Notice all the was?!?!
My heart is truly empty to him. He will have no way to save him self in my eyes. I'm afraid maybe he wanted to break up with me along time ago and this is easier for him, I don't know. I wish I had options but there's no way he was innocent. See I like him so much I just want to wake up, and this never happened.
shadowed, confussed, and reckless.

Blood mixed with my tears

Today the world seems to end. My boyfriend had cheated on me with one of my good friends. He used her for she thought we broke up,plus she was a little tipsy. Wrong she knows. He even wanted to go all the way. She said no and left. He knew how much I liked him to! So I'm doing it, I'm breaking up with him. One problem he is never at school, one more day of skipping and he gets kicked out. I should break up with him face to face but if I come close to his face I might rip it off. Doesn't he see what hes missing? I'm a nice, pretty, funny girl and he used me and my friend. I was raging mad at her. Now I'm a little disappointed in her. But he knew how I felt that insignificant jerk , two timing ba- I should stop myself. I'm not sure if any one is reading this, but it makes me feel better to talk about.
my hearts been
ripped out and
smashed into a
brick wall.

Love, the shreded
emo

I will be a happy EMO!!! I WILL !!! Oh God I think I'm so pathetic!
Luv me!!!!

Happy Halloween

Today is Halloween!!! I'm sorta a skeleton punk rock star makes no sense. Hope your day is spooktacular! I realize i,m starting to like this guy even though my feelings for Chris are sky high, but it seems Chris just seeems not to care! Last i saw of his beautiful face was 12 days ago. Pathetic I'm counting!!!!! So when I see him again I'm going to have a good long talk with him.
Scared Witless Emo

Here again

I feel so crazy. Falling of a cliff of emotions! I have a great boyfriend, we just click. But he never comes to school! I haven't seen him in 10 days. So I relize no matter how much my heart loves him, I have to decide for the good of my soul and mind. Things about me. I have a lip pirceing, wear converse, band t's, long hair, kinda the adorable girl(to shallow?) So if anyone reads these I'm sorry I don't have much to say.
Love sic emo

Emo the Culture

This is emo culture slapping you in your face. My question is how can you not be emo? It strangles us!! But the one uncool thing is cutting please don't do it! Tell someone if you hurt. So emo easy to make fun of, but mostly for no one understands. Its more than hair, eyeliner and old cruddy converse. Its a culture of expression and feelings, being in touch with yourself. So just try to understand. Be involved don't be stereotypical!
Do I Look Emo!!!!