Taste of me

What to do about James. I do love as I always have, but this other guy is bubbling up in my heart as well. It will be fine as long as we are just friends. But the way this guy is I might break that rule. I always end up hurting someone I love. And I have hurt James so much. If I do something foolish, then he'll truly hate me.
Bitter winter
Leaves so bitter from the winter air
Where once light and green in the spring air
The summer made them moist with dew in morning
Right before the sun scorched the grass
And burnt my pale skin
When birds rarely flied for their wings were heavy with
The summer's happiness
That seems so long ago when brooks soothed my thirsty skin
Now frozen, all glazed over, barren and so dark
And the birds stay still took keep from freezing
I will wait for the time when all is fresh and new
When all rejoices at the sun
When i am whole and well again
The leaves will shine bright green once more
Well theirs you taste of my poetry. I right about nature, modern things, and feelings. I will be submitting more of my work later. want to know a secret. I just made that up of the top of my head. I love to write, it helps me express what at first I could not talk about. I believe anyone is reading this they can see how much I've changed. I hope they were not to disgusted with my first posts.

TWILIGHT

As mentioned once before, we will be discussing TWILIGHT, right now. The books are well written the love so fresh and honest. It wrench's your heart and makes you swoon. Not to mention Its so dark. Dark is always beautifully. Then I mean its about vampires! The most wicked mythological creature their is( beside faeries of course). I would love to have my own prince of darkness. Now I'm not brain washed like most of the country. I read TWILIGHT when it came out in 2005. It it took 4 years to catch on! That's why I believe I'm a true fan. I finished the series a week ago( the last book). It was a very pleasant ending. Not at all tragic, like I hoped it might be. Of course Bella becomes a vampire and her and Edward live happily ever after. Very cookie cutter for a dark book. But as I said it was a fine ending. But what is with Edward. The only flaw her HAD was barely being able to resist Bella's blood. That guy was a god. Very unusual. Well get back to me on what you think.

My head is spinning

I put myself down in print but I realize you don't know me. I've never shared my art or poems. I haven't let the real me shine through. I bet you thought you got all of me but truly it was but a glimpse. I have talked to a person I'm not even sure exist. He is someone I always dreamed of meeting. Someone to discuss music, books, art, language, poetry, and philoshpy. This guy Carlos is extremely intelligent. I have never had a more stimulating conversation. He almost frustrates me with his insight. He just seemed to grab my attention and never give it back. I'm afraid I'm already obsessed. He is Gothic. Which warms me to my freezing toes. Maybe he's been damaged as bad as I have been. Guess this he lives very near me, we know the same people! I truly believe in fate know.

Start and end

well today is the last day of school. Christmas is 5 days away! Theirs a party after school today, James and I are going. I'm excited. I got ABBA CD for the gift exchange. It took me forever to think of, cause we had to give a gender friendly girt. And all I could think of was pens. And no one wants pens for Christmas. But that's about all that's going on. Oh yah my ex- best friend is a total skank. She is going out with the first guy I ever fell in love with. She calls me all the time to rub it in my face. They have done it, like 6 times. Oh and they only used protection 1/6. Gawd have fun being pregnant. Whatever I really shouldn't concern myself. Except he had cleaned up and made a good life for himself. Now he's screwing it up all over again. I am going to miss James over break. But I'll try not to think about it.

Go ahead and let them talk/ their words mean nothing/ i know your
scared/well leave this place/ just turn around and letme see your
face/
METRO STATION

Chillin by my self

I cannot focus. Like James isn't at the same tournamet as me. Which basiclly sucks. i hate to sound whiney and attached( cause James seems to hate it when people get attached) Like he crazily refuses to relize that people do get attached, ussualy it's not planned at all. So I love candy coated kisses from the one I love. Take that emo kids. Whatever that means. Ok Dane Cook has to be the funniest comedian in the world. Though he does drop the F bomb alot. Yesterday made me tottaly feel like a marathon runner. I was up and down flight of stairs super fast. well thats it.

Well...........

Well I'm enjoying my crappy cup of coffee I made! Thinking more sleep would have helped. Everyone else is zonked out. So Twilight, Love it hate it? I personally think they are good books. I haven't seen the movie. I'm kinda afraid too.

Full circle

Dude I knew it would happen me and James again. We danced around each other all summer and finally got together. He's in debate club with me. I love being around him. Just like old times. I just really feel comfortable around him. Guess what he got me for Christmas, a CD. I knew that would happen. It's FOREVER THE SICKEST KIDS. I Frackin love it. So its super early I can't sleep. On a trip. My partner and I won all 4 rounds of debate. Then we got back to the hotel and got to swim in the inside pool. I always knew that James and me could not stay from each other. Gosh my roommate is snoring loud!!!! LOL Anywho I try to keep in touch. But you guys don't depend on me. Love the haters!